The last decade of my life I’ve been trying to figure out the mysterious, magical formula to successful gardening.
I spent a small fortune getting plants that were already well on their way.
How could I screw that up right?
I did my research. I talked and sang to the individual plants.
I even prayed for each plant.
I was well on my way to the big, beautiful garden that I had envisioned!
I enjoy learning deep mysteries of God from the simple, overlooked, mundane experiences of life. Gardening each year is my time with Jesus to ask questions, find answers, and wait for wisdom.
While enjoying my time in the garden with Jesus, one question I asked Jesus was “What is childlike faith?”
The answer was funny and slightly heartbreaking:
…”Sarah, childlike faith happens when every spring you dream and envision your beautiful, fruitful, successful garden. Time after time you’ve failed…the unpredictable, unimaginable things come against you and your garden fails in an instant…but you wake up next spring with a new heart and a new mind, forgetting the pain and heartbreak of last time…Your heart and mind is set on success!… This is what I want in all that I ask of you!”
“Ok, Jesus, now that Ive learned what childlike faith is, now I can have a great garden!”
NOPE! I just HAD to ask another question! And Jesus, in his goodness is faithful to give an answer!
“What does all this unprecedented failure mean to me today, and how can I apply it to what I do spiritually?”‘
My answer came this year in a dream. Pictures flashed before my eyes of all my beginnings of gardening- the hope, the joy, the new life!
Then the pictures of my end result- failed, dead, withered plants.
“Sarah, each layer of dead, unsuccessful attempts, has become a fertile, rich layer that prepares the grounds for a fruitful, successful ministry.”
The grounds of success are fertilized by the grounds of failure!
I must keep trying. I must keep childlike faith for what God has called me to do no matter how foolish it looks and feels to get those seeds out again and begin planting with a fresh perspective. Renewing my heart and mind daily to expect success!
When God has called you to begin a new thing, don’t allow the failures to bog you down. Know that in every failure you are “fertilizing” and preparing the grounds for a rich harvest.
Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.